Ben doesn’t love me I know it. He likes Sarita and L. L is some girl that he met at the fair that he must be madly in love with ’cause he spent the whole day with her. I went swimming with Tanya today and then did Ben’s paper route. I’m so stupid. I should just forget about Ben I’ve lost him.
I’ve been mean to all the guys that have talked to me ’cause I want and love him, and then he turns around and does this. Sarita went to her father’s so I’m going to be bored. I’m going to the fair tomorrow.
Cathy is going to lend me money so that I can go and I’m going to pay her back. I love Ben and I can’t believe he did this to me. Being involved with boys hurts too much.